#LangfordsLeaveHouseForMickeyMouse

One week from today, Ryan and I will be at…DISNEY WORLD!

While I was pregnant, one of the big things I kept bringing up was how badly I wanted to take Emmett to Disney World.  Baby boy wasn't even out of the womb and this mama was already planning his first trip! :) Ryan and I had talked about how we would take him before we gave him any siblings…because it just felt like the right thing to do.  (And really, is there ever a time when Disney isn't a good idea!?  Exactly.)

I still remember on one of our last days in the hospital, Ryan looked at me and said, "We need to go to Disney."  I kind of laughed at him, and said, "Okay."  A few days later, we were booking our trip!  I guess I didn't quite realize how serious and set he was on going :)

Where we're staying - Beach Club Villas!
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As silly and strange as it may sound, I am so looking forward to this trip, for a few reasons.  It has given me something fun to hang onto, a place for my Type A, list-making mind to escape to.  When I need to just not dwell on our current circumstance, my mind often goes to our upcoming vacation.  As much as I seriously love living in Michigan, this mitten girl is ready for some serious sunshine and quality-time with her husband (and Mickey Mouse).  I'm just really loving the idea of escaping.

When we found out Emmett had passed, at one point during the day, the thought ran across my mind that maybe if I could just run away, and keep him inside of me, somehow everything would be okay.  I know that sounds crazy, but when crazy bad things happen, you sometimes think those kind of crazy thoughts.  So the thought of escaping to Disney World is simply divine.

I've had a lot of people comment or ask about what we're going to do with so many other children around us, and here's what I tell them - we will enjoy every minute of our trip, and soak up as much of their sweet, innocence and energy as possible.  Yes, we might have a couple moments where we miss our son, but really?  That emotional process happens everyday regardless of whether we're at Disney or not.  Plus, I see this trip as another opportunity to choose joy.  When I see other families, I will be glad for them, and know that it will be my turn someday to experience the same with my own children.  Simple as that.

The biggest thing I'm looking forward too on this trip though, what I have been dreaming of, are some ways we can celebrate our sweet baby while we're there.  I have one little idea that isn't anything too crazy, but I'm still brainstorming!  When we booked this trip that was the main thing we talked about; how we wanted to take this trip as an opportunity to honor and celebrate our Emmett.  So if you have any ideas for ways for us to celebrate him, let me know!  I'm open to suggestions :)

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Dear Emmett, we are constantly thinking of you.  The only way the happiest place on earth could be any happier is if you were there with us.  We love you.  Love, Mama