I had anticipated holding Emmett proudly, enjoying my first Mother's Day as a mom. Instead, I'm bracing myself for the onslaught of inevitable tears, and sympathetic faces as I face the day.
In spite of the painful part of knowing what this Mother's Day will bring, I am going to do my best to try and see the good in this day. I am still a mom, and plan on visiting the cemetery to visit Emmett's grave, then we'll be spending the rest of the day with family. I won't live in denial, I will walk through my emotions as they come. If I need to cry, I'll cry, but I won't deny myself laughter. I will celebrate motherhood for myself, as well as my own mother, and mother-in-law. I've decided (in the spirit of embracing the upcoming holiday), to find ways to embrace it even here, in my small corner of the internet, with a couple of "fun" posts planned :)
To my friends and family who are walking alongside me in this painful journey of learning to live without our son, thank you for your support. I know I've said it a million times, but Ryan and I could not get through this difficult time without you. So please, like I've also said before, please be gentle with us. I will probably cry. I'm trying to celebrate and find the good in the darkest situation. I am doing the best I can to feel thankful for the nine beautiful months we spent with Emmett, instead of focusing on feeling the pain of losing him.
In spite of the painful part of knowing what this Mother's Day will bring, I am going to do my best to try and see the good in this day. I am still a mom, and plan on visiting the cemetery to visit Emmett's grave, then we'll be spending the rest of the day with family. I won't live in denial, I will walk through my emotions as they come. If I need to cry, I'll cry, but I won't deny myself laughter. I will celebrate motherhood for myself, as well as my own mother, and mother-in-law. I've decided (in the spirit of embracing the upcoming holiday), to find ways to embrace it even here, in my small corner of the internet, with a couple of "fun" posts planned :)
To my friends and family who are walking alongside me in this painful journey of learning to live without our son, thank you for your support. I know I've said it a million times, but Ryan and I could not get through this difficult time without you. So please, like I've also said before, please be gentle with us. I will probably cry. I'm trying to celebrate and find the good in the darkest situation. I am doing the best I can to feel thankful for the nine beautiful months we spent with Emmett, instead of focusing on feeling the pain of losing him.
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